Opposites Attract

By Emmie

Opposites attract.

That’s what people say.

Opposites attract.

Well perhaps that’s why Patrick and me got together in the first place. You’ve got Patrick the arrogant, self-centered prat who doesn’t appear to have any regard for other people whatsoever, and then there’s me, gentle, caring good-natured Holly, always doing what’s best for others. Complete opposites.

But then you can look at it from another angle. If you look deeper into our personalities you will find that we’re not all that different after all. In fact me and Patrick a lot more in common than anyone really realises. We can both be extremely stubborn when we want to be, I know there have been many times where I certainly have been very obstinate. I didn’t want to admit to myself, or to anyone else, that I still had feelings for Patrick, so I didn’t. Purely because I didn’t want to believe it, maybe I was scared to. And I know that the same can be said for him.

We are both also very good at pretending. We are experts on shutting things away, covering up and lying through our teeth, to ourselves as well as to others. I pretended that I was over Patrick, to the point that I almost believed it myself. I have almost perfected the art of covering up the feelings that well up inside me every time I lay eyes on him, or even just think about him. The feelings of love, hate, peace, anger, safety and uncertainty, all inside me at the same time. And judging by the look in Patrick’s eyes sometimes, he often feels like that too.

I want it to be different. I want it to change. I don’t want to be constantly covering up my feelings and making sure that I don’t let something slip out that might reveal how I’m really feeling inside. I want to stop hiding away from these things that are slowly eating away at me. I’d love to have my feelings for Patrick out in the open. Having to keep them to myself is slowly killing me.

But I can’t. I can’t, and you know why? I’m scared. Yes, Holly Miles, with her ‘perfect life’ and ‘no problems other than the ones she faces at work’, is scared. I’m not entirely sure exactly what I’m nervous about. It could be rejection, humiliation or that he might not take me seriously, or it could be all three. But then again it could be that I’m scared of finding out for certain that he feels the same way I do. I know that sounds stupid, and it is really. I just don’t know what I would do if he told me the feeling was mutual. I’m so used to covering everything up that it might be hard to let it all out again.

I know that completely contradicts what I just said, and it probably doesn’t make any sense. Then again, it doesn’t make an awful lot of sense to me either! All these thoughts are confusing me so much. I’m not really sure what to make of it all!

But one thing I do know for sure is that I love Patrick more than anything. He means the world to me, and I don’t know what I’d do without him. He has helped me through all the hard times in my life. And, I know this sounds cheesy, but I am who I am because of him.

Opposites attract.

Or do they? Me and Patrick. There is something strong between us, there always has been. But are we really opposite? I don’t think we are, no matter what people say I’m convinced that we are not totally different. In fact, there’s more in me and Patrick that is similar than anyone I know could realise.